Shining light and the insides of my head

Things can happen that will scare you and the thought is what ever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. One time I was walking down Fullerton and some guy threw a bottle at me and it smashed at my feet. That's enough to make vin diesel crap his pants. There are two types of anxiety inducers though. Ones that are created inside your head and ones that are created outside your head. Holding onto an ideal inside your head will always protect you from the outside by your thick skull. But once you give up inside then your fighting a losing battle. I feel like there's a huge defense system setup to trip off any pessimist thought bugs that crawl through my head. Kinda like the cockroach motel, first we insert a burning rod into its anus and then pull off each limb one at a time. That makes sure that they'll never come back again. That was a little gross and morbid but it got my point across and that's the idea of this blogulism. Everything will be okay in the end so everything that happens now is trivial. Why spend hours stressing a decision that you'll look back on 10 years from now and laugh at yourself for. Because its the little things that will help shape you who you are in twenty years. I keep on forgetting that. Its the catch 22 of my life but its a balance that needs to be kept. because honestly you can give up on yourself and you will go on living a 9-5 job, do the family thing, and pretend everything is okay because that's the idea of livin'. But the absence of self-satisfaction will consume you and before you know it you're 43 and wanting to take classes at COD in cinema set design.

When free thought gets lost in your head there is little hope that you will put up a fight again. That's when the exterior must overcome the interior. Its a flip from previous theory but is essential for you to win. Talk about looking at yourself 10 years down the road. Will people really have antennas on their heads like Elroy jetson and will briefcases turn into airplane cars. I always hope for technology to break through but people are too damn stubborn and set in their ways. Its a mindpath that's breed and rebreed along the way. That's why you have kids in your 2nd grade class who love republicans or why 6 graders will say that gay people are going to hell. We'll still be chugging along on locomotives and eating big fat cheeseburgers when hover bikes come out. That is unless you live with John Galt. That's for you KB, did you make it okay on the landing?

I just jumped out of the bubble but I have some bubblicious stuck in my hair. A little schneidy thanksgiving tomorrow. All are welcome. Sure to be bonfires and howling at the moon.